nearly 3 months have passed since I last posted....and it's not like it's been a super busy time of my life such that I can't write anything - more that I think I haven't had the urge to write down all my thoughts and wanted to try to spend more time just interacting w/ ppl. Well...it's snowing in Seattle in Nov....and I'm couped up in my apt with no place to go, so I guess I'll do some blogging....
First thing I guess is work. Nothing too exciting in that department really - people are great, but I don't feel challenged at all in my current role. I am staffed at Cingular and work in their eCommerce area, and let's just say that I feel insignificant in my daily activities. Sure, someone has to do it, but it just doesn't make sense to me that they pay so much for me to do what seems like mindless work. Don't get me wrong, the company is great...but I'm definitely ready for a change and want to take on more responsibility. Looking on the positive side of things...I'll treat this as a transition to greater things. I hope that my efforts to portray myself as a leader and responsible person will lead to a role change by the end of this year. *keep my fingers crossed* One fun thing we did as a team was we went to Atlanta for a meeting w/ all the other Accenture ppl who are at Cingular. It was only for a couple days, but I got to know my teammates a lil better and I got to meet up w/ Liz too! Although I only got to chat w/ her in the car and check out GA tech, it was still fun to catch up w/ her again where we had crazy SWAT memories =P Our team saw Borat also....man is that movie disturbing. I think it's overhyped....it's occasionally funny, but not smart funny...just stupid funny....and then it's uncomfortably funny....I'll just leave it at that.
On the relationship side of things....I think I've been spending lots more time with Chris. There's been some pros and cons...it's nice to have someone always there for you, but sometimes I feel like we're together way too often and I notice alot more of the incompatibilities. I guess that's what happens when you've been w/ someone for 2 years....ack....scary thought....ppl keep asking me if I know if he's "the one", and I guess my response would be that I don't really know. It hasn't ever been the first priority for me because I care way more about accomplishing so much more before marriage and settling down. I want to still do crazy things w/ friends, go traveling places, be able to do all those things w/ no strings attached. Honestly, I sometimes even wonder how it feels to be single....is that bad? I mean, this is the longest relationship I've ever been in and it's been great so far....but at the same time it makes me wonder if ever I should take a break from it all and see what else is out there. I think I am someone who is afraid of commitment, but simultaneously afraid of being alone....wow...I just realized how transparent I'm being right now....ok, next topic.
Friends! I miss all of my old friends...Jessica, Liz, Al....so many ppl have left....I feel like I have very few close friends left in Seattle. I'm grateful to have Alex still nearby =) Bren and XJ are great too...keeps me on my toes so that I don't become anti-social =P I think every year I tell myself that I'm going to put myself out there more...hang out w/ friends...call more ppl...but every year, I somehow fall into the groove of putting work/school as my first priority and let friends lag behind. This aint right! And by the time I am consciously willing to go out more (now that I just do work and have tons of free time after work and on wknds), people are already in their social circles making it tough to join. It's all good though. It does make me wonder sometimes if I am perceived as hard to get close to...I have many acquaintances, but few close friends. Chris is the only one who really knows everything about me, but it shouldn't be that only the "significant other" is aware of this....how DO you usually know if someone is someone you can connect with, and how do you take that to the next level and change a casual friend into someone you can share personal stories with?
Recent happenings...Thanksgiving was fun - made me miss home a little bit with talking to my parents. I'll definitely spend time w/ them over Xmas. so anyway....TONS of food for thanksgiving - as I'm sure is a common story among everyone. I love leftovers though - although..still need to get my hands on some pumpkin pie! Maggianos is a great place to eat if you're absolutely starving and just want to gorge yourself out =P Bren's place was fun as well - taboo is always fun when you're hanging out w/ new ppl or old friends. The turkey and ham were amazing....and I was pretty content with my sweet potatoes =P Despite the tragic incidents (yes plural) with them....first burning the marshmallows on top and setting off my smoke alarm, then letting melted brown sugar and butter dribble onto the back side of my car....yea...let's just say I'm quite the newbie to the concept of a "casserole". Shopping was also a dominant activity for me....checked out Alderwood, Bellevue Square, and Northgate Mall.....even considered going to the midnight madness at Premium outlets, but I was too tired. Also got tons of ski gear in prep for skiing trips in the near future! Dude....it is an expensive sport....$20 for a pair of goggles? At least I was prepared for this crazy snow storm that came in this past few days....I got car chains and other emergency car gear. Luckily I haven't had to use any of them yet, but I was cutting it close yesterday coming home from work! Spent 2 hours on 522....luckily I was sneaky with taking other routes outside of I-5 & 405, which I heard were in gridlock due to accidents and ppl running out of gas and getting stranded out there. I am going to have to rethink living in Northgate though - what I thought would be great about it (cheaper, kinda in the middle of everything, close to Seattle City Light and Comcast) turns out doesn't help. There's always major traffic on I-5 around the Northgate exit, and I get these random power outages even though all the lights are on at Seattle City light across the street! how weird is that....
ok, running out of typing juice....next stop - dumplings for dinner!
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